The ghosts of 3am

The ghosts of 3am

There's lots of things that keep me awake at night. Most of them relate to Poss kicking me in her sleep or needing to be held while she struggles to find peace, while others are caused by the millions of post ideas that run through my head like a herd of startled sheep, yet somehow more chaotic. But some, some are intangible fleeting feelings of guilt and sadness. Sort of like when you wake up from a dream and can't quite remember what it was you were dreaming about; the specifics slip … [Continue reading...]

Cliches and holidays

Cliches and holidays

Holidays have rolled around again. Term three done and dusted, edging closer to the end of the year every day. People are already putting countdowns to Christmas on Facebook, and it seems the shops have seen them, because I kid you not, there is Christmas decorations in my local supermarket. I don't know where the year has gone. It's cliched and a total line, but I don't care. One moment we were trying on a summer uniform, preparing for a new school. A blink of an eye later, we're about to go … [Continue reading...]

Hold it tight.

Hold it tight.

On the weekend we were fortunate enough to be invited to help a gorgeous girl celebrate her communion. The church was unfamiliar to us, the ceremony slightly different to Poss’ but the pride of the parents, as they watched their children move through the motions of tradition, was exactly the same. It was standing room […]

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It’s just a moment in time.

It's not real

A few weeks ago, a very clever blogger, Tiny Savages started a challenge. A reality a day. Sharing an insight into your life, the non-photoshopped version. The version that you usually crop out, or try and hide behind filters. I participated for a few days, and then as always when I try to participate in […]

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The dreams still come.

The dreams still come.

This week we booked a holiday. And ever since then I’ve been waking up in cold sweats. The nightmares are the same or variations on a theme. Each one involves packing, or lack there of, or missing passports. My heart is racing, I can’t find the suitcases, or all my clothes are gone from my wardrobe, […]

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The difference between a melt down & a tantrum

The difference between a melt down & a tantrum

 We were due a bounce. It was time. And it seems the past weekend, it finally hit. A lack of sleep seemed to sap whatever grasp on rational behaviour she had left, throwing it out the window in a dramatic fashion that only a melt down can bring. Hours later, she’d cried herself to sleep. […]

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Light and shade

Light and shade

I recently tried to explain to someone that I was really, quite a bitch. She laughed in the awkward way that new friends do, wondering how I could say that about myself. I said it again, nicely of course, that I am quite a bitch. She laughed again and assured me she’d never thought of […]

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Normal, yet not.

Normal, yet not

We arrived home yesterday to find someone had taken it upon themselves to break into our house. Burgle us. It still feels quite surreal to even say those words. The doors were all open, the gate open, yet strangely the dog was still in the yard, and the cat asleep on the deck lapping up the […]

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Picking the scabs.

Picking the scabs.

We sit opposite each other, three of them, two of us. A bit like a weird kind of job interview. Or maybe it’s more like a meeting with a bank. You know they hold all the cards, your whole life is on those sheets of paper, you just hope they are kind when dealing them. […]

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Her cup runs over

Her cup runs over

“Why doesn’t she do that for me? Are you sure? She really seemed fine. I’ve never seen her behave like that, maybe you’re reading more into it than there is. You’re just sensitive. She only does it around you, coincidence?” These are all reasonable questions. Actually, not they’re not, they’re kinda rude. But they’re questions […]

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